That, needless to say, has been an absolutely epic failure. I have a few theories as to why this is, and a few ways that I am going to work on it.
For one, minimalism is a state of mind, not a state of your wallet or your closet space. I was trying to fix the symptom, not the cause. And I also discovered, to my utter horror and shame, that I like buying clothes. I do not know when this happened. In college, I seriously wore the same 4 pairs of pants, the same 6 long sleeved t shirts, the same Romeo shoes, and the same black fleece to class. Oh, and of course, the same black rain jacket (welcome to Corvallis). And I didn't care. And no one else did, either. If the sun shone, which it rarely did, and it was warm enough, I wore sandals and a skirt.
|ok, not exactly feminine, but oh so warm and comfortable!|
So this year, I am not saying that I can't buy any new clothes. I am, however, going to talk with Steve about each and every clothing purchase beyond underwear and socks. Steve doesn't really care, but he has agreed to be my "accountability partner" to help me beat this clothing monster that I am struggling with. I am also going to decrease my "allowance" so that more thought is required about what I want to spend money on. My allowance covers clothes, books, haircuts, shoes, entertainment, magazines, chocolate, and other miscellaneous items for myself, as well as activities for me and Rachel, and Rachel's clothes.
More important than these outward changes, though, will (hopefully) by the inward changes I am looking to cultivate in myself. I just ordered the book Simple Abundance by Sara Ban Breathnach. My goal is to read an essay a day, and journal about it. I read a few quotations from God is in the Small Stuff by Bruce and Stan that prompted me to begin this true journey to contentment:
"Be as satisfied with what you don't have as with what you [do] have."
"Your wealth is measured by the fewness of your wants."
"Being deprived of something you desire is better than having something you despise."
"Satisfaction begins when comparison stops."
"What you are bears little resemblance to what you have."
Step 1? Delete Facebook account.